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  • Chaoskampf

    Chaoskampf

    I roll my thoughts like Sisyphus, punished for my hubris, yet not absurd enough to find meaning in it. I said I would wait for you forever, though I did not expect to have to mean it. I no longer trust the clocks. I found the calendar to be a liar. Shattered schedules have seduced Read more

  • Far From Home

    Far From Home

    He was pulled off on the side of the road to tie the tarp back down in the bed of his truck when the phone rang. He locked eyes with her photo on the screen. Eyes that brought him so much joy now looked back at him with judgement in every pixel. The picture spoke Read more

  • HOPE IV

    HOPE IV

    I’m stuck between a hopeful futureAnd an all too well forgotten past. One day, even someday, this dreamWill draw breath and walk with me. Time lies that it’s as lifeless as stone,Chipped away at more each month. A heart without break is hardly love;I grow patience because we are eternal. I’d dash myself into a Read more

  • My Lament

    My Lament

    I feel Thou hast abandoned me;Forsake me not, O Lord. Thine absence burns like fire,Yet all I have done is grumble. I shall not survive much longer this way,Unless Thou knowest that I can. This cross is the narrow way,Still I cannot understand it. Thy will be done in me,Even if I cannot bear it. Read more

  • Pressure of Love

    Pressure of Love

    They say pressure creates diamonds, but is that kind of clarity worth the pain? I was so sure of who I was once. I went out into the world with no other plan than to live in it. I failed fast, rolled with the punches, and punched back. Through each turn of the screw, each Read more

  • Kentucky Rain

    Kentucky Rain

    He listened to Elvis sing about the cold rain on his drive through Kentucky. Unlike the song, he was running, not searching, as red and yellow leaves fell from the trees. He was leaving a ghost that couldn’t be kept; a ghost he only knew through machines. Crystal clear to one is clear as mud Read more

  • Toroid

    Toroid

    Light bleeds from my eyeballsDark seeds in the backyardThorns threaten to chokeMind blind from wasted time. Death flees from my sideLife threatens more timeSomeone help what’s brokenMend what can’t be touched. Snow falls in a circleWinds spins in a spiralI’m descending upwardsTrudging downwards still. Black lungs with black heartViolin strings cut shortGuitars play sardonicallyThe grand Read more

  • Superposition

    Superposition

    My fingertips grasp ata ghost of future’s glory.Forever is in sight,but just out of my reach.I fumble with patience,never calling it my own.My mind spins and searches,turning all the facts over.I apply reasons to signs,but it’s only to cope. The end starts with the beginning,but the beginning has already ended.What depths of depravitycan hold this Read more

  • Hope Is a Slow Death

    Hope Is a Slow Death

    The supreme goal of many people today, even many Christians, is to escape suffering at all costs, regardless of how minute or inconspicuous. Yet not even our Lord evaded suffering, being a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief (Is. 53:3). Indeed, no matter how far mankind advances, or thinks that he has, which religion Read more

  • Dragonflies

    Dragonflies

    She floats amongst the dragonflies,darting through thick Summer skies,that she’s only seen in hardcover books. Her beautiful brown eyestrace their invisible white lines toChemtrails Over the Country Club. She calls me sugar, but it’s her namethat is the sweetest of all words to touchmy tongue, and curve my lips to smile. Her arrival is marked Read more

  • Three Days

    Three Days

    I’m scared to speak because I need this peace, freshly captured once more, even if it’s false. I could scarcely cope with more scrupulosity today, or tomorrow. Three days turn to five and two weeks turn to six. “I can’t get you out of my mind,” I first said so early on, yeilded with such Read more

  • Crying From Hell

    Crying From Hell

    Time passes me quickly;I let it slip by while I hope;It laughs as it’s squandered. I’m not humble enoughTo be grateful for life soI ponder the hour of death. I wonder furtherWhere will I standAt the final judgment? I hope in God’s mercyBecause I read it inThe lives of Saints. Perhaps I’ve evenSeen living examples;God Read more

  • You Were the Sun

    You Were the Sun

    For a brief time you were the sun to me. Everything that you did, and all that you were, and all that I knew we could be, lit up my dark skies. The time that passed in silence gave me a chance to grow cold over the memories of us. There is no more warmth Read more